why i feel this way
Posted on: July 29, 2008, at 01:43:23pm

Am I too nice? Do I know too much or not enough? Am I not worth a minute of words with another? No? Why?

Why has it taken the ones I've grown up with this entire time to come around and say-that girl-she's OK. Now that I've graduated high school, I'll probably never see them again. And chances are they're okay with that. I'm not. I'll miss you.. more then you'll ever know. And I'll never be able to tell them. So, these past four years. I've changed, definately. But is it good or bad? You be the judge. I THINK, and I WRITE. If I were still the way I was four years ago, I probably wouldn't have a myspace, let alone be found writing on a blog.Four years ago, I thought I was hideous. But aren't we all at some point? I'd like to think so. Is that it? Is that why I'm seen as inferior? That's pretty stupid if that's the way it is. Love IS, after all the only rational thing that ALL humans are capable of whether we acknowledge it or not. No matter what religion, color or race-we all love someone or something. That's a fact. But then what do we make of hate? I say hate is a strong word that not many people know how to use correctly. We never really hate, just dislike moderately. And if you say I hate etc.-You had better be damn sure-and I mean DAMN sure. I could care less if you lack the ability to think. Start thinking, and think about that. Is it really going to matter awhile from now that you hated the most popular girl/guy in school? The answer is no. Why? Because you never really hated em'. You just said that because you didnt know yourself. And chances show you still dont. You don't, really until you're in your 30's. What are you or anyone else going to do about it? What am I going to do? I'll think about it, but then I'll do something that noone does- and that is detach myself from that moment. Done with it. Maybe not for good but at least for now. Kind of like this blog. I've got it all on your screen. So thats it for today, but more will come. So in the meantime try it. You'll be surprised and maybe amused like I was when I wrote it. English pays off,

1. 1: missiekix_06
   Posted at 1:43pm on July 29th, 2008
2. 2: S-T-E-V-E- 0
   Posted at 7:38pm on August 2nd, 2008