I'll put you my top friend as soon as I can get on a stupid computer! :( Promise!

Everyone else, I'm out of the hospital. I don't really feel any better. Probably just worse. I miss it there. I felt better. I felt needed. When people would get mad and flip out I would calm them down. When the staff was restraining someone and they needed help, I stepped in. I ran most of the groups myself, I put together all the teams during gym. I stole so much food and handed out to friends at night. All the girls told me who they liked. All the guys told me who they liked. I hooked everybody up. The staff loved me. I felt important. Now, I sit in bed. My ex is yelling at me and I guess I'm depressed. I'm not really sure if I am. I can't tell anymore. Blah. I'm boring you guys. Point is, I'm home and MooMoo, I'll make you number one ASAP!

Hey... Sup, ya'll? Just thought I'd update the people who care. At 1:30 PM EST, about an hour, my grandma's coming to pick me up to bring me for an evalutation. Someone, most likely my friend (not that word, Bill. Friend. It's not in quotes. It's not italics. It's not sarcastic...) argo15, showed the counselors at my school my last thought. Blah blah blah, they called my house. I got woken up to my mom screaming "why don't you just off yourself right now so we don't have to pay for your medical bills" amongst other things. Anyway, I have to go get another psychic evaluation. I'll pass it. I was banned yesterday, so I couldn't say that I was feeling a bit better. I went out with my friend and we played a game where we tried to think of a way I could relate Kaite, my ex, the girl I love, to every possible object. It hurts to know how easy the game was :/ I miss her. She's the reason I don't want to keep going. I'm slowly seeing I have to. I REALLY don't want to. I'm scared. The real world's coming real fast. I turn 18 on July 18th. I get kicked out that day. I dunno what to do. My job doesn't pay enough for an apartment... Two jobs? Food? College? Bills? How will I ever find a girl again? Friends? I'm scared... Idk. I got in a fight with Kaite yesterday. She yelled at me because I saw her for the first time since I lost her and I cried. In class. <-loser. Anyway, thanks for the support. :/ And Nic doesn't get my credits now :p Though, I may get him a sub. :o

I'll just get things out here. I'm pretty much sick of living. Where is it going? I'm going to die anyway, so I might as well get it over with sooner. Besides, why would I want to continue a life that I have now. Let's see, I have a mom who doesn't feed me, a dad who always hits me, the love of my life just left me, I have no friends, a fucked up hand and head, no money, no friends, no life, I mean shit, why have I gone this far? At first, I felt guilty about it. I felt guilty and thought that I'd feel bad cant my parents having to deal with me, dead. But, I woke up to my mom screaming at me how I have no life, she hates me, and I'm never going to be anything or anyone. Why the hell should I feel guilty, because she sure as hell won't. Anyway, depending on how long it takes to get the pills, I don't know when it'll be. So, after I haven't logged on for about 3 weeks someone notify an admin. I want all my credits to go to Orange Dude. Or OrangeDude. I don't know if there's a space. But, yeah, that's pretty much it. Peace.

Figured I'd make a list! :)

- Bynary Fission
- devonin
- Orange Dude
- Xception704
- Virus003
- Cloud0005
- Travman301
- Robertsona
- Who_cares973
- Emerald000
- Foilman8805
- Mr. Nothing
- S0ulst0n3
- Argo15
- Lightdarkness
- MalDON
- iluswirl
- Frozenangel91
- dandandamdandan1111
- Infinty.
- jump_the_bullet
- x3mamimi
- nu0n
- STD On The Rocks
- STD Sappy
- oni - paranoia
- tupacodaman
- -zeroskill-
- 8 Hour Whore
- [Tera]
- al81
- Babyvpr
- bbe-doll
- Brilliant Dynamite Neon
- Championanwar
- chaosthorn
- Chidori!
- colt.45
- DrugstoreCowboy
- EAGAMES
- fastfingers65
- funmonkey54
- gnr61
- gun92
- kgz
- djshox
- igotrhythm
- izzy
- Jasonkey
- knuckles2224
- lxDestinyxl
- mistakenbeauty
- mrmagic5239
- nu0n
- oh_liv_ee_ah
- phynx
- plan_bsk21187
- rsr2
- SarahxJane
- shadethedarkddrplayer
- sullyman2007
- tangomango
- thunderstrike687
- tuv
- xipig
- Zageron
- justin_ator
- customstuff

*newly added*
- TD_Project
- Clarissa_Rainbow
- Makilaz
- Welsh_Girl

I figure since everyone's asking where I was and then tell them I was in the hospital I'll just post it here, lol.

I was chillin with 2 friends and these 4 kids came after me with pipes. I grabbed a pipe too and then they kept trying to throw me in the road. I jumped back on the sidewalk and Austin swung at my face. I ducked and smashed him with my pipe until he backed up. Then the other two came at me. I got hit in the face with a pipe and started to fall then got hit again. Right before I hit the ground I knocked someone's legs out from under them. They started kicking me and shit. My friend screamed she called the cops and they ran.

In the end I got my skull split open in two spots with 22 stitches. My left arm's broke and I got surgery to get 4 metal rods put into my hand. Could be worse, lol.