ok the topic, is a girl finding out her b/f cheated on her, and she kills him, his family, and then herself, tell me what you think of it.. so far


im done with your shit
just pack up and go
you promised me never
just shut up and go

ill have my revenge
you can count on that
you hurt me so much
now get that fact

i hope you understand
what i had to do
it was the only way
i could get over you

Now i sit above your grave
with tears in my eyes
i scream out "thank you"
up towards the sky

now i sit alone
thinking of what ive done
tears fall from my face
as i reach for the gun
i ask myself why
you had to go and do that
had to go for that bitch
your family cheered you on
but now they are gone
they lay beside you
in the cold ground
im finnally over
ill see you around

ok this is a sort of long and hard to tell story, but it all started when i was a kid, constant family problems, fighting and everything, and my name always seemed to come up the most, so i kept the blame of my mom and dad fighting as my fault.. they ended up parting and getting back together, but the fighting never stopped, and yet again my name came up the most, so i took it all upon my self, well i remember my first real relationship 7th grade.. i went out with this girl for 3 months and she broke my heart the day before valentines day i was crushed, she never told me why, so my natural instinct from my past was to take the blame upon myself, i was then single for 2 years sulking in heart break, until in 9th grade i finally had the courage to ask out another girl, which only led to a break up then that led to a series of heart breaks and endless pain and sorrow, so much that i have become

A Shadow of My Former Self
A Shadow of What I Once Was
I have Become A Shadow
A Shade Of Me

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This pain is endless
it slowly brings me down
it bends my knees
send me to the ground

I begin to wonder
where this pain comes
and can i try
to find what its from

this pain it hurts
it hurts me so
i just wish
i could let someone know

I try to keep feelings
hidden deep inside
their only escape
is when i cry

crying frees my soul
from this dwelling pain
making my body feel
normal again

But normal only lasts
as long as you hide
the feelings that are
eating you from inside

They eat you from inside
and tear your thoughts away
they can almost have you
not make it through the day

They tear you down
you build back up
Im about to quit
and give it up

to stop this pain
and end this sorrow
so i wont feel
worse tomorrow

I can end it so quick
can end it all so fast
so i can finally
see peace at last

So I can end this pain
and end my thoughts
all my actions
that i have brought

upon myself
that hurt me more
makes my heart and brain
feel so sore

Im so tired of fighting
im about to give up
im about to sit back
and call it enough

im done with this pain
im done letting it hurt me
some times i wish
it would leave me be

id show you my feeling
let you see my thoughts
but i dont want
you to get caught

in this twisted maze
in this endless drop
into depression
i wish it'd stop

I wish i could end this
with out saying goodbye
the only end i see
is for me to die

i dont want to let go
of everyone and everything
for im in fear of the pain
that death will bring

(CJC)